Sunday, 31 July 2016

Doing a few hrs admin - bf was doing the fence today but has a puking #hangover (or maybe the #norovirus). Spell work later & new video but #Mayastar catch up & hot #chilli #ramen. Need to change my schedule too. Had organised mine to work around bf but he doesn't have one. Also drinking & smoking again (him not me)...weirdly negative effect being around that for me. Doing some private #channeling readings for clients this week which will be interesting. One is with my #Pleiadian #SpiritGuide and the others with "Jack" (a nick name). Jack allows me to communicate with another's higher self - he's like a translator for me and I see the point in this - with Jack acting in this capacity there's no risk of possession...although I suppose it involves a level of trance, it feels like articulating an inner dialogue. The trickiest part is remembering to say out loud what I am asking but it's easier to communicate more detail than I do with other types of reading. But a fantastic opportunity for developing my Mayastar and Maya Magickal work this year :) #Selfieoftheday #picsart edit - testing #Rimmel #blackeyeliner so excuse my roots need doing (too hot to #henna) - used only #cremedelamer compact & light reflecting powder, #lushcosmetics #tintedlipbalm & #wonderbrow. No foundation. No concealer. Not even #mascara. Just want to see how this stuff lasts :) ♡ www.mayastar.net www.mayamagickal.net www.mayarunes.net http://ift.tt/1fk59qy http://ift.tt/24o08JN Rq free info manuals, syllabus & student guide if you are interested in any of #EnergyHealing, #PsychicReading options or #SpiritualDevelopment & #SelfRealisation courses ♡


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Tight Lacing Corsetry for Body Modification (Rib Contouring)

20″ probably laced to 22″ at that time. The floating ribs curl in more but they are only attached to the back and are cartilage so they give you a bit of back ache as they curl in. Then the ribs above those slightly bend down and as they grow (bone cells are always replacing) they grow into the new shape but it takes longer and the ache moves from your back to the sternum.

When people say like corsets or wear corsets they generally don’t know anything at all about corsetry. Obviously the rib contouring takes longer if you carry more “fluff”.

And people who voice concerns about reduction in lung capacity…if there is some it’s gradual and you body adapts so you breathe higher in the chest – that doesn’t do any harm. Fat or smoking reduce lung capacity too…people seem to forget that!

If you are tight lacing for body modification purposes, always make sure you corset after you work out…your muscles are attached to your ribs and they will become smaller and denser if you corset after exercise. I didn’t know that and my ribs used to literally pop in and out when I danced! (I am lucky my natural waist 24″ is small).

Oh! Anyone who wants to train, buy a corset made to measure. You can’t seriously train off the rack!

♡♡♡ Think I’ll blog that…it took me years to train to 20″….it’s something you can only do properly if you want to achieve that. I can close on 18″ with a couple of samples I have but that’s more an extreme line than the Victorian line I like. The extreme curvy line that creates an hourglass is easy to wear. It’s like wearing a tight belt! Doesn’t suit my Victorian style any more than off the rack ones do…I haven’t ever found an off the rack that isn’t an instrument of torture…I would advise  people to save up for one REAL corset and don’t waste money on off the rack. 

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20" probably laced to 22" at that time. The floating ribs curl in more but they are only attached to the back and are cartilage so they give you a bit of back ache as they curl in. Then the ribs above those slightly bend down and as they grow (bone cells are always replacing) they grow into the new shape but it takes longer and the ache moves from your back to the sternum. When people say like corsets or wear corsets they generally don't know anything at all about corsetry. Obviously the rib contouring takes longer if you carry more "fluff". And people who voice concerns about reduction in lung capacity...if there is some it's gradual and you body adapts so you breathe higher in the chest - that doesn't do any harm. Fat or smoking reduce lung capacity too...people seem to forget that! If you are tight lacing for body modification purposes, always make sure you corset after you work out...your muscles are attached to your ribs and they will become smaller and denser if you corset after exercise. I didn't know that and my ribs used to literally pop in and out when I danced! (I am lucky my natural waist 24" is small). Oh! Anyone who wants to train, buy a corset made to measure. You can't seriously train off the rack! ♡♡♡ Think I'll blog that...it took me years to train to 20"....it's something you can only do properly if you want to achieve that. I can close on 18" with a couple of samples I have but that's more an extreme line than the Victorian line I like. The extreme curvy line that creates an hourglass is easy to wear. It's like wearing a tight belt! Doesn't suit my Victorian style any more than off the rack ones do...I haven't ever found an off the rack that isn't an instrument of torture...I would advise people to save up for one REAL corset and don't waste money on off the rack. http://ift.tt/1f78XOI FB http://ift.tt/24o08JN www.mayastar.net #corset, #corsets, #corsetry, #tightlacing, #waisttraining, #annalouisemay, #Mayastar, #ribcontouring, #bodymodification, #Victorian, #Victorianclothing, #victorianstyle, #tinywaist


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20" probably laced to 22" at that time. The floating ribs curl in more but they are only attached to the back and are cartilage so they give you a bit of back ache as they curl in. Then the ribs above those slightly bend down and as they grow (bone cells are always replacing) they grow into the new shape but it takes longer and the ache moves from your back to the sternum. When people say like corsets or wear corsets they generally don't know anything at all about corsetry. Obviously the rib contouring takes longer if you carry more "fluff". And people who voice concerns about reduction in lung capacity...if there is some it's gradual and you body adapts so you breathe higher in the chest - that doesn't do any harm. Fat or smoking reduce lung capacity too...people seem to forget that! If you are tight lacing for body modification purposes, always make sure you corset after you work out...your muscles are attached to your ribs and they will become smaller and denser if you corset after exercise. I didn't know that and my ribs used to literally pop in and out when I danced! (I am lucky my natural waist 24" is small). Oh! Anyone who wants to train, buy a corset made to measure. You can't seriously train off the rack! ♡♡♡ Think I'll blog that...it took me years to train to 20"....it's something you can only do properly if you want to achieve that. I can close on 18" with a couple of samples I have but that's more an extreme line than the Victorian line I like. The extreme curvy line that creates an hourglass is easy to wear. It's like wearing a tight belt! Doesn't suit my Victorian style any more than off the rack ones do...I haven't ever found an off the rack that isn't an instrument of torture...I would advise people to save up for one REAL corset and don't waste money on off the rack. http://ift.tt/1f78XOI FB http://ift.tt/24o08JN www.mayastar.net #corset, #corsets, #corsetry, #tightlacing, #waisttraining, #annalouisemay, #Mayastar, #ribcontouring, #bodymodification, #Victorian, #Victorianclothing, #victorianstyle, #tinywaist


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Wednesday, 27 July 2016

Whispering Witch Heart to Heart - Manifesting & the Law of Attraction in...





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MANIFESTING & THE LAW OF ATTRACTION DURING DARK OR DEPRESSING TIMES...
Even those of us who consciously practice manifesting work, meditation and other techniques to lifting the heart and for soul ascension...whatever our goals may be at the time, will experience times when we are feeling down - despairing or exhaused. Perhaps phyisically, mentally or emotionally ill. Periods of change can also leave us feeling emotionally exhausted. Down in the dumps - shut down - the words we use to describe the feeling gives a clue to the fact it is something that everyone experiencing from time to time.
Now, we can’t change what happens to us in life, but we have a great deal of power over how we manage it and how our perspective and understanding develop.
This video covers some of these principals and how we can change the way we look at things to enable the things we look at to change.
My working title for this video was...

DON’T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU BELIEVE
DON’T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU THINK
AND DON’T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU FEEL

That about sums it up and I hope you’ll enjoy the video!
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Sunday, 24 July 2016

ASMR Pleiadian Channelling - Consciousness & Higher Functioning Autism





ASMR Pleiadian Channelling - Consciousness & Higher Functioning Autism
As requested; a channelling with my Pleiadian Guide. I have worked with him extensively in what I would consider a method of communication that was more telepathic. But it’s very different to any channelling work with Jack.
The Pleiadian Light Body Activation, White and Celestial Encodings were channelled through Aerian before I had any back an forth communication. And with both of my guides, I find writing far easier than trying to relay the conversation back and forth because information is often received in transmissions that are pretty difficult to explain - it’s very fast. But communication with Aerian is more like a dialogue - something I can write notes on very easily compared to communication with Jack. 
So I’ve addressed to Aerian in this short session, why some people can communicate with light beings and guides and others find it harder. And also why Indigos and Starseeds so often incarnate with an ability to Higher Functioning (Autism, Aspergers etc) and whether this ability allows us to develop our psychic gifts and channelling gifts more easily.
Talking while I’m communicating with Aerian feels a bit like patting your head and rubbing your belly to me - I’ve never tried to dialogue and share the conversation. It’s sort of mentally tiring but I think something I will get used to!
So if you have any questions or subjects you’d like to see addressed to either Jack or Aerian in future sessions, please let me know. It’s certainly and are I would like to work on developing!
Be Whole! XX Maya
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Friday, 22 July 2016

Mayastar Heart to Heart | Namaste - Defining the Divine Within | Self Re...





Mayastar Heart to Heart Video



Namaste...what does it mean...and what does the meaning imply?



To answer this we need to look at definitions of the word and also to define the Souce, Reality, God etc...and consider with that in mind, what this term of respect means when used appropriately.



In this video I set out to do just that - and hopefully bring some thought provoking ideas to you...



If we are united by one Divine Source...let us consider the nature of that Source in order to understand ourselves and each other on a more spiritual level. Allowing our perspective to shift.



When we do, our view of life, love, spirituality, God, reality all shift too.  And we are able to learn to respect and love ourselves as well as family, friends and strangers.



I hope you will enjoy it and find it informative.



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Mayastar Heart to Heart - Gratitude for Challenges | Realise your Spirit...





I recently made this video...about the philosophical magickal understanding of what courage is. But I went off topic using an illustration that made an example of something very well, but not of courage.



So this video is almost a follow up to that but I made sure it stands in its own right. I think the informal style of my videos makes it too easy for me to sail off chartered waters!



Anyway...what is courage? What is Fear? What do they mean to us personally in our development as human beings?



Courage isn't the ability to not feel fear or not show fear. It's the ability to face things that evoke it head on.  Face life's challenges.  Use those challenges to realise your potential in new ways.



We all experience hard times - my abusive relationship was an example but not a good one. A better one would be a death in the family, moving home, moving out of the family home, changing your job. The little things we all face that do cause fear and anxiety for us...but that give us the option to see them as opportunities or as personal failures. And over time, as you achieve more, you believe more IN YOURSELF. It's that self empowerment that is the key.



Facing your fears very literally gives you the key to express your potential in new ways, realise spiritual gifts and allows for a perspective where you can count your blessings in a whole new way!



Through Mayastar Academy I teach people energy healing and meditation and these are methods people can use to 'get through' difficult times while maintaining a perspective. And ultimately, as you mature spiritually and develop personally you come to see those challenges as the blessings they are even in the moment. Just as it takes rain to make a rainbow, it takes darkness to see the stars. Sometimes...the darker is the better for gaining perspective in the moment. But it's a natural part of everyone's life journey.



Facing your fear is key to the process of becoming Whole. When you can see that, you realise that the process of counting your blessings is a never ending option...it's an opportunity if you decide to make it one.



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Monday, 18 July 2016

I was raped. Courage & Self Realisation. Are life's challenges most powe...





22 Years ago, I was raped by my long term partner.
I was young and this had seemed to come out of the blue. He became physically, mentally and emotionally abusive after this...he also had 4 affairs that I know of during the 9 years total we were together.
Looking back, I regret not going to the police. And I regret not telling anyone or talking to anyone about it.  If anyone finds themselves in a similar situation, please don't deal with it by hiding it. They are the one at fault; and no matter how twisted they are and how manipulative they are (and they usually are)...managing to make sure you feel ashamed for something they should feel ashamed of...no matter how difficult it is, trust me when I say, spending your life covering for an abusive relationship or hiding an assault from people, means the attacker continues to do damage to you psychologically, long after the event is over.
Considering courage in the context of a magickal philosophy made me want to make a video about how courage isn't about not being scared...it's about how you handle being scared. It's about learning to trust yourself to cope with fear and have faith in your own potential abilities to turn it around. Maybe even use it to your advantage in some way.
In that way, I can look back and say 22 years ago something really bad happened to me...but ultimately, it increased my potential to overcome fear, pain, suffering...and on some level, life's challenges are those things that create the most powerful opportunities for us to prove ourselves. My self confidence and self esteem might not be what they are today had some of these things not happened in my past. They did force me to step up to mark in a way that may not have happened any other way. Perhaps ultimately, they made me a better person; a stronger person. And perhaps ultimately, making this video might help others too. I hope so.
They say that what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. I would encourage that. Don't let what doesn't kill you make you angry, vengeful, bitter or afraid. In the strangest way, we have no control over what happens to us, but we have control over how we deal with it. See yourself as an empowered person and challenges can turn to opportunities.
Of course it's not a simple thing; it took a lot of hard work. But do you really want to let the abusers, bullies, rapists of the world win you over to their way of seeing yourself as a victim?
PLEASE DON'T!
In considering an example it was the only situation I could think of where I was actually scared for my life...and it took me a long time to find the courage to end the relationship. I'm not proud of that. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. But anyone who has been in an abusive relationship or subject to a sexual assault...remember one thing - they are actually BREAKING THE LAW - it's not a moral issue, it's nothing to do with what you were wearing either. And there is a legal system that sometimes fails...but sometimes works. That is the system that rapists should face so you don't have to allow their actions define you later. Again, this isn't an easy thing at all. But my experience is...don't harbor criminals.
I feel very strongly about it. It is perhaps my biggest regret not calling the police when it happened...because living with the secret was like dealing with something that happened to me (not something I did), over and over again. And it took a lot to move forward. I think it always would have - but I think I would have felt better about myself, the situation, the world, if I hadn't kept the secrets of someone like that.
So I really intensely want to tell other victims of assault within or outside of relationships...PLEASE don't suffer alone.
If you don't know where to begin and seeing the police seems too difficult, tell a friend and have them phone the police. See your GP as an emergency and have them phone the police. Do whatever you can do. But don't keep it to yourself.
Do anything you can to avoid falling into despair. Study psychotherapy...see a therapist...a counsellor...whatever help you can find, find it.
I feel like, worse than the event itself for me, were the 4 years of not even thinking to myself in words what kind of relationship I was in. I didn't even tell myself. Let alone anyone else. That was a lot to deal with. It had a lot of consequences that dealing with it a different way wouldn't have had.
Also remember...22 years later, things will look very different. I hadn't lived 22 years when it actually happened...but looking back, I am a very different person now. It's impossible to say what might ever happen to you in life...but I know for absolute certain, I would have been waiting at the police station door when it opened the next morning if it happened now.
We're not defined by what other people do to us. Sometimes it feels like we are. But we're not. And I dedicate my life to teaching courses that empower people (in various ways)...something I feel extremely inspired to do but something I couldn't have imagined doing 22 years ago.
Time doesn't heal...it's what you do with the time that decides whether it heals...so if you can learn anything from my mistakes and my situation, please, please do. If I can make a difference to one person...save them the 4 year limbo...I'd donate a kidney to do it. So making this video, not my favourite subject, but the least I can do <3
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